Yes, and I forgot to add that my mom passed away May 16th, 2021. Heart failure. CHF. Mitral valve didn't get replaced quick enough. Never seemed to be well long enough. Now she's gone .I want to call her frequently still. When I'm pissed off or do something new or the girls do something great. Amelia is 8 and in 3rd grade. Getting better and better as she ages. I hate that she is called bossy by so many of her peers. Do boys get called bossy? She's a leader. God created her to be that way. She's decisive and knows what she wants to do. Play a game or wear whatever outfit. I will continue to try and nurture that in her as she gets older. She is wise and intuitive. I told her about how my grandpa EJ Rawlins used to get whipped for crying. and she thought about it and said, Maybe, its not that his dad was trying to be mean, its that he had to make him tough for life. Bro. I sat there with my mouth open. Cause that's absolutely correct.
Helena went through a rough period at the end of 2020. She was dealing with depression and self harm and how she interacted with older boys on social media. She has grown a lot in herself and has gotten more comfortable in her skin. We decided that 16 was when she could date. I believe in her. she is strong and loving and soooo good at reading people and knowing when to separate her self from someone vs spend time with them. I love being around her. Her laugh is infectious. Her hair is funky and she is stylish. Fish net stocking gloves, tights, docs, skirts, dresses. anything she pairs is smashing. She is knocking out school. BRILLIANT girl. Not grade wise. She does well with that, but she is so wise and knowledgeable. Not bad looking either. She has a goal to get stronger. She's been working out with cirrus as much as possible. Its cool to see her flex her arms and legs. She's something else.
Cirri has gotten married to Erik. October 23, 2020. Wedding in the park, long sleeve lace dress. Gazebo with Mr Eddie as the pastor to marry them in front of this gold circle and flowers all around. The way that Erik looked at her as she came down the aisle with her dad at her side was so priceless. His long red hair, with gold glinting in the sun. Gracious me.
So now they are living right down the street. I try not to bother them much. Not that they think i'm a bother but I want to make sure I don't intrude. They are so loving and spend time with us pretty often. Tonight they're spending the night cause helena said she missed them. So I'm getting off at 830 and hope to have fish and mashed potatoes waiting for me. It will be great to see them and have great discussions.
<3 them so much
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