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Wednesday, Mar. 13, 2002 : 12:43 pm
Bitch and love.
Now for my real entry. I just wrote one before this but it was like a writing project thing that I started last night in my head and thought I'd continue it on paper today when I had a moment and I could do so without worrying about her starting to cry because she was disturbed whilst napping.But now that she is doing so I thought I'd just write down how things have been going. Well we are miserably behind on bills. (Okay not really just my car payment which is the most important one. I have Feb and March to worry about. YIKES! How do I let myself get into these messes? Well being on maternity leave and only have his income thats how!! I love being a mother. She is starting to coo and smile and make all kinds of gurgling noises all the time. She hasn't lost any of her hair and at the root where it is growing longer, it is blonde!! HELLO!! She is beatiful. Once I figure out how to load a pic onto my entry I will post a pic of her. Maybe. I dont' know there are some sickos out there. Speaking on that topic. I am no longer friends with Joann. Sadly yes, its true. I can't be friends with someone I can't trust. I swear she runs and tells her fiance everything that comes out of my mouth and then some!! bitch. Sorry. I had to say it. Like once, I was still prego at the time and she told her fiance that I said that I was going to break up with Justen if he didn't ask me to marry him before Cirrus was born. I didn't actually mean it, but I believe I was quite frustrated and had had a bad day or something. So she took it upon herself to tell wes to talk to justen and maybe it would help. WRONG!! He got extremely pissed off at me and it was all thanks to her having a big fat mouth. Well this last week end I got bitched at because of something I said that she didn't obviously understand so thanks to her again. I had said that I didn't trust Justen alone with Cirrus when she was first born and I meant because I didn't think that he'd know what to do if something went wrong, because a lot of men don't. It's natural. And she told her fiance that I thought Justen would do something Cirrus in a sexual way. WTF!! And then she said that I said I'd had a dream about it?? Where did that come from?? It took everything I had not to drive over there and knock her fuckin' teeth down her throat. I don't care if that sounds mean but fuck it. Lets say that I did say that (which I didn't) and I had told her that in pure confidence which you should be able to do with a true trust worthy friend. She has no right or business to mention it to anybody without consulting me first. Then I called her and was yelling of course and she let me get out 3 words and hung up on me. Can't take it I guess. She wouldn't answer my calls after that. Dish out shit and then can't take it when it hits the fuckin' fan eh? Oh well. You find out who your real friends are then don't ya. But thats okay, because despite my apprehensions about Kelly I have been talking to her more lately. She really seems to have changed. Attitude wise. She is more down to earth. Gotta go my girl is just waking up and crying her little cute dark haired head off... More later.
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