my life

Thursday, Sept. 13, 2001 : 4:10 pm
I'm somewhat back sorry for the delay...

On Saturday I had to be admitted to the hospital because I was bleeding from a part of my hymen that was left over I guess when I first did the deed was pulled off or ripped away. (EEWWW) and I gushed blood and I bled until like 12:30 when I woke up on Saturday and went to the doctors and they admitted me. I was there until like fuckin' 9:45pm or so...and then went to Paul's where everyone was and we spent the night there.

I didn't call and tell my mom because I didn't think that she would react the way I need to here to. You know: NURTURING??? But yeah, anyways, so I have been making plans like mad. (Not fun ones at work I copy architecture plans) and I am just bored off my ass right now. I have to stay until 5 again and I am out of things (For now) to do so I thought, what the hell, I'll update.

Me and Justen have been bickering like mad lately. He doesn't pamper me and he needs to start. I am pregnant. What is he going to do. Let me continue to do everything? All the laundry and dishes and cleaning and pampering of him??? I wash him in the shower and wash his hair and face and shave his neck (You know the two patches men get?) and he doesn't do shit for me. (He actually thinks that cuddling with me while we were asleep is pampering -Oh my-)

So anyways, he started trying to pout because he says I have been being different to him this last week and I told him. I was in the hospital and that doesn't even spur the interest in you to do anything for me? I don't understand!! Does he think him being just normal and acting like because I'm fine he doesn't need to do anything special with me? or for me? Well think again. If he wants romance. Romance me. That is what it will take from now on. I will do nothing else lovey dovey sweetie peetie without him doing some major making up for when he hasn't been. So hope he smartens up. I won't leave him or anything stupid like that I will just continue to be pissed off and the more pissed I get the more he's going to go without. I am pregnant now and don't depend on sex all the time because I'm in baby mode. I feel quite dreadful most of the time so unless he makes me feel great he won't feel great. TRUST ME ON THIS.

I am back hopefully more reguarly. It has been busy. We have had 2 jobs bid in the last two weeks so I've been making copies of plans more and more. Its MADDENING!!!

I swear if I have to make one more FULL set of A's I will take the pain of all the paper cuts cause by them and put it forth on the vendor that I am making the fucking plans for. I have paper cuts on my fuckin' feet because the sheets of paper are 36" X 48" and drag ontop of my feet. I almost sliced my eye one day. I would've sued.

We are helping Joann and Wes and Paul move into their apartment on Saturday. I am so happy for them. Its sickening. I think its wonderful. I don't care if they've only been together for 2 months. Me and Justen went out for 3 and I became pregnant. Woopti shit if she and he live together. She loves the shit out of him and he's getting there.

Laters,

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