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Friday, Aug. 25, 2000 : 7:11 pm
Stress Stress Stress!!!
Well I'm chillin' at Joann's house. Her mom is out of town so we're all staying over here. We started to move move our stuff to my moms place and we're going to finish tomorrow. I am frustrated because I want it all set up and ready to go to tomorrow night and its not set up at all. FRUSTRATING!! I don't know.Me and Justen got into it because he said that I didn't have passion for him anymore because of the fact that I am stressed and letting the stress get to me from work, and not making enough money and letting it spill into our life. Its not the best thing to do and I talked with Justen about it and he seemed like he understood it and then he got upset again today and so that told me he didn't actually understand. He said I have no passion for him now. That is so not true. I am totally into him and making love to him and I just get so consumed with stress and not making any money at the dead end job that I am at and then I get to where I think about the baby and the environment we lived in sucked ass too and it was just a mess. and so now that we are going to live with my mom in a sane house hold its going to be a lot better. Kelly was there whenever we got home last night and was there with her two freak friends. Actually I'm sure that they're fine but they just act wigged out whenever they are hopped up on whatever drug of choice they've taken at that moment. So kelly was there and she was hopped up on something as well and she tried to play off that she was just drunk. Which was bullshit. Its like she leaves her parents house where she is safe and good to go and then leaves there to get into more trouble. How dumb is that??? I have all my dirty laundry that I still need to get and some more boxes and shit. I just also want to be out of there and have me and Justen getting on with our lives. and I feel we've been totally not really able to fully explore and show our feelings for eachother and our soon to be here baby and all because of the restricted house hold that we lived in. STRESS STRESS STRESS!!!!!! It's getting better though. Let me know what you think...
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