my life

2001-07-19 : 11:42 a.m.
Growing up is hard to do, though a much needed process...

Seriously. My God.

I went to Whole Foods yesterday (Grocery Store for health nuts) and I was wrapping the roses I bought for Justen up and I hear this singing. and I thought to myself, my God, who is this weirdo who is singing out loud in the middle of a store?!

Then I look up and he'd gone around the flowers and infront of me and he stopped, and said," Sophia?"

I was like? Jon Welch? HEY!!! Weird. Someone from Hutto in Houston? Much less in the grocery store? That is so cool. Small world.

We did the usual small talk that consists of," hey hows it goin' what're you doin' now, oh thats neat" He used to bring his guitar to school all the time and play in the court yard. So he's down here with a band he's in and they're doing real well and they have a demo that is coming out today. Which is rad, cause that shits hard.

So I give him my # and get his and we leave. I told him to call me when he has a gig and me and Justen would totally love to go to it.

Can you say WRONG!!! Justen tripped out. I told him I'd run into my friend Jon from Hutto in the store and we exchanged #'s and he's down here trying to get his band off and I gave him the card that had his # on it because I knew he'd wig out and he crumpled it up and threw it. FUCKING SHIT!! Grow up.

I moved away from everything, I have no friends down here but him (and he's not acting like one lately in the past few days) and so it was nice for me to be able to for a few seconds connect with someone who knew me a few years ago.

I hate it. I told him I just gave him the cell phone # and he goes are you sure you didn't give him your work and moms # and your email address??? You better not have and he better not find some way to contact you either!

I wanted to scream!! Grow up! I don't have to just be friends with you!!! I am allowed to have other people that I care about. It doesn't mean that I have sexual interests in them!! I am a caring person!!

He told me I shouldn't have felt the need to exchange #'s with him.

and he started to put Jon down too. What kind of a fucking idiot puts on eyeliner and wears fingernail polish!!! Who gives a shit about him he's nothing important blah blah blah. Insult after Insult.

What kind of a person insults someone they have never spoken to or ever met. Its not like I said," Hey I met up with my friend Jon who is a child molester. But he's in a band so its okay. " Nothing is wrong with Jon. He's a nice person. He's trying hard to do something he loves to do. and so what if I think it'd be neat to see him play. God. Grow some self confidence and self esteem. You know you have none, so get some. Its simple.

So after him insulting him one after the other and having him act like I'm stupid and fucked up because I got his # and wanted to see him play or even had any kind of interest at all in his life I am stupid and fucked up because he wouldn't care if he saw somebody he was friends with in Highschool and wouldn't care what they hell they were doing much less exchange phone #'s I shouldn't either and I am wrong for having an interest and doing so, I hung up, and he called me back and said that I should care what his opinion is, (and what change mine or ignore mine because his is different than mine?) and so I can have Jon's # and he doesn't care and not to call him about my doctors appointment and he'll see whenever he comes home. and hung up.

ITS MY STUPID OPINION AND I'LL CRY IF I WANT TO, CRY IF I WANT TO CRY IF I WANT TO. YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE A FRIEND YOU SHOULD DO WHAT I'D DO..DAH DAH DAH DAH DAH....

and he said that because I exchanged #'s with him I was trying to not move on with my life. "You're not in highschool anymore, we have better things to do than to go and see some stupid band thats not even a real band..." "That's stupid to want to go see a stupid band that's not even a real one. " Go ahead Justen keep on demeaning my interests because it just shows how insecure you are. Not how much you say you love me.

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