my life

2001-07-15 : 7:04 p.m.
His beauty runs deep within me...and my eyes drink it in...

I don't know why lately, but Justen sitting next to me is almost unbearable because I wish he had his clothes off. Not necessarily so that I can ravish him, but because of how incredibly attracted I am to his body.

Every hair on his chest, every freckle, and every single one of his scars is just ABSOLUTE PERFECT BEAUTY. I love to watch him dress. Or just walk around naked.

To watch him sleeping as well is just simplistic and breathtaking at the same time. To watch his breath come across his lips is amazing. I long to kiss his mouth and lick his chin. But if I did take advantage of his unknowing and unconscience self, than I would possibly awaken him and thus disturb whatever dream he may be having. Hopefully of us entwined in eachothers embrace.

But who knows, I just feel sooo emotionally strongly connected to him here lately. I always have but in the past few weeks it is just sooooo strong. I think of nothing but him or the baby. Nothing else seems to cross or enter my mind.

He is worried and I see it. He hides it almost all of the time and then he lets me in on how he thinks that it is going to be soo hard and I can tell he doesn't think its going to work out that well. and that is unfortunate. I know it will work out. Because we have eachother. and that is all that matters.

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